im tierd of thinking of you,
get out of my head,
get out of my dreams,

Im tierd of talking about you,
get out of my mouth,
get out of my voice,

Im tierd of being scared of you,
go away,
get away from me,

you arnt in control of me any more,
you will die,
you will go to hell for what you did.

I wish there was a way to tell you how i feel
I wish there was a way to find out if this is real
i wish there was a way to find out if we make a good pair
I wish there was a way to tell you how much i care.
i wish there was a way we could end up together.
to share our love now and forever
I wish there was a way to tell you how much i love you.
and hear you say the words i love u too.
i wish there was a way but there isnt
but so u know I LOVE YOU!!!

Srry I have not made a post in a while.. So i am making one now...

my day was good all I did was go swimming and went to go see some places from the movie the outsiders!! It was pretty cool i liked it.. so yea>>>

I think that is it

When I lie awake at night I stare away at pure black. The darkness of the night soothes me. The constant noise of voices in my head never leaves. The voices are saying things that ought to be heard. Things that haunt me. Things that have hurt.
The pain never goes. The deep never fills. I am hurt. For now I rest.
I lie in my final minutes for which the pain has left me. The deep not filled for it is bad and has gone to far to save. The red over flows. I lay soaked. It does not stop.
I thought of love but that thought had disappeared just like the world around. The dark comes back but does not leave.
I am gone for now I awake to a new place.
Here's my truth.

I've been pushed down so many times
I feel this time will be the last
as I lay here fading
my thoughts are invaded by memories of my past
I feel the pressures of shame and rejection building
as I lay here on the floor
I have no strength to get up
I'm not worth it any more